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"Battle of the Spirits: Part IV" FOR HALLOWEEN *Xylanthia* |
Seeing the expression on Adams' face was too much for me to bear, I started praying for it all just to go away; and somehow, it just did.
I don't know how it happened, but suddenly I felt a wrenching pain as I fully disconnected from my body. I found myself looking down upon the scene that played out the night that Adam died and helpless to put an end to it. I fled the scene before the girl that was now Bree actually killed him, I just couldn't watch anymore and I allowed myself to soar.
Eventually I found myself back in the cemetery, I couldn't really think of anywhere else to go. Visiting my family and friends seemed a pointless endeavour that could only cause me more misery and heartache. If I had to live this empty existence I wasn't about to hang around watching as those that I loved continued on without me. The thought just hurt way too much.
There I remained, for the longest time I was aware of nothing but my own sorrow and loneliness. In time I began to have an awareness of other lost souls surrounding me, yet it took me quite a while before I began to carry on any sort of interaction with any of them. Over the course of time I actually learned quite a bit from them, and I began to again have some hope that someday I might live again. Figuring out how to make that happen was another problem all together.
One day, I saw her standing there in the distance, all alone and looking so sad that I just had to approach her. It was inevitable that she would come, it was her only passion. She looked so miserable and alone, all I wanted to do was comfort her. I reached out to attempt to stroke her long black hair and suddenly, I don't know how, I found myself looking through her eyes. It was different than the last time, and not just because this time I was the invader...something was missing. It was Lara herself..her essence, she just wasn't there.
I don't know why it happened, or how really. At first I felt guilty, living again within her body and wondering where she was and if she was okay. Then I felt a thrill at knowing that no matter how it happened, I was back. I stuck around for a bit, trying to feel any semblance that she was there trying to contact me. When I felt nothing I went to my new home, and there I found it..her suicide note. I wept as I read it:
"To anyone who cares. I can't go on anymore, something happened a few monthes ago and I feel so guilty. My best friend had some sort of accident because she was with me pursuing my stupid fantasy of proving life after death. I don't know what happened, but it made something in her snap, and that's why she killed Adam and went to the mental institution. It's all my fault, if I hadn't dragged her along, none of this would ever have happened. I guess I'll have my answer now...I love you all and I'm sorry. Lara"
As I looked around, I found it, the empty bottle of pills. She must have taken them and then walked to the cemetery to die there. I can't really explain how it happened, or why her body continued to live after I took over for certain..but my guess is that I slipped in just as she slipped out. Although her body had consumed all of those pills, I think that the souls' will to live or not is the deciding factor..and since I wanted to live so much, the body kept on going when I slid in. I hope that for Lara's sake she found her answers and some type of comfort. But having been there, I don't really know. Maybe it's different for those who go willingly versus those who "slipped out" of our souls' home accidentally.
What I do know is that I have been given a second chance at life, and since I'm still not sure how often that really happens, I'm making the most of this one for *both* Lara and I. Through her, I live again and vice versa.
Well, time to lock up this journal and put it back in it's hiding spot. Jesse will be here to pick me up for our date soon. I just recently really noticed how beautiful his eyes are, and hey, I always did think that he and Lara would make a great couple. |
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| Alias | Date | Reply |
| THE OUTLAW |
10/15/2005 8:31:00 PM |
Interesting how this ended. I loved it. Best story I read in over a year. :) |
| Xylanthia |
10/15/2005 8:33:00 PM |
WOW..thanks joe..that is an awesome compliment.. |
| Souldrifter |
10/15/2005 10:02:00 PM |
Hon, your writing got better and better as you went along. You should consider doing these kinds of things more often. I was totally drawn into the story and felt saddness at the end. Great Job. *hugs and smiles* |
| Da Klown |
10/15/2005 10:09:00 PM |
I am in shock! COMPLETE SHOCK!!! I had no clue it was going to end like this. I can't believe it ended like this. I loved the ending of this story Xylanthia. Great read and thank you. :) |
| Xylanthia |
10/15/2005 10:20:00 PM |
LOL..thanks so much Milenko...thank YOU for reading and liking it..you guys are really really inspiring me to start writing again.. |
| Xylanthia |
10/15/2005 10:20:00 PM |
Wow..thanks so much Momma..I am so glad that you liked it..and I will consider it. I actually used to write ALOT when I was younger, then I got with the ex jerkoff and had Kelsey and figured it was a useless waste of my time so stopped writing...I am soooo glad that I came here and became reinspired....thanks again Momma your words mean so much..((HUGS))
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| chikachikaboom |
10/16/2005 9:23:00 PM |
Great ending!!! I loved reading this story. It is truly one of a kind :) |
| Xylanthia |
10/17/2005 5:39:00 AM |
Thanks ChickyWoo..that is really kind of you to say..;) |
| Hagatha |
10/17/2005 8:45:00 PM |
An ending totally unsuspected but really neat. I also like the moral the story hints at. You wrote a very cool Halloween story. |
| Xylanthia |
10/18/2005 7:46:00 AM |
Thank you Penny...I am so glad that you enjoyed it!! Thanks so much for the compliment.. |
| funky winkerbean |
11/1/2005 1:57:00 AM |
Anybody know James at this graveyard? Good one Xy :) |
| Xylanthia |
11/14/2005 12:56:00 AM |
LOL..I don't know Monkeypoo..could be...could be..;) |
| Nocturnal By Nature |
11/14/2005 12:23:00 PM |
Definitely one of the best stories I've read here! Seriously, you should get this published (I'd be the first one to buy a copy) :D NbN |
| Xylanthia |
11/14/2005 12:55:00 PM |
Oh my GOSH!! Thanks so much NbN..you guys keep up this praise and I might just attempt to get published..;) |
| Nocturnal By Nature |
11/14/2005 1:29:00 PM |
Shoot! You've inspired me in maybe even I should start up writing stories again! (((HUGGS))) NbN |
| Xylanthia |
11/14/2005 5:21:00 PM |
Go for it..reading others here and having support from my friends here has helped me to.. |
| Nocturnal By Nature |
11/14/2005 11:09:00 PM |
yeah I started this novel years ago and suddenly stopped at like chapter 11 lol! I've been staring at it in my database all this time thinking, OK someday I'll finish it lol!...NbN |
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