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Halloween! - What was it really? The feel of .... ~~Jungabel~~ |
I remember it well, as if just last night. It was dark out, but I'm not really sure of the time. I think past midnight but before two in the morning. I wasn't sleeping but was in that world between worlds, where not quite awake but not quite asleep. I lived at the time, in a two bedroom house. Not a house really, it was more like a shack, with tin roofing that had been colored with water rusted staining. Our walls were bare wood, but for the weather painting it gray. I was alone at this time, and not one to be scared, I thought nothing of the oddity of this peculiar night.
It was so black and so muted, that the darkness felt heavy, air hanging like a viscous fog, velvet and thick. There was a sound I heard as I sat still in the night, did I dream it? What was it? I sat in silence. Now wide awake, I listened to silence, the sound of it pounding deaf in my ears. Again I heard it, an awful screach, or was it a scrape, so loud it made my fillings ache and vibrate. The deafening sound made my ears actually ring, like "IT" was in the room with me.
Immediately I was awake, every nerve was on fire. You know when you hear such a thing that it is unreal, and queer. I thought maybe the roof, the tin being climbed, but heard naught again for several minutes. My heart ached with pain running right down my arms. Pounding so loud that it deafened my ears, I'd swear it could have been heard by the others. I lay still now, afraid to breathe, that what IT was, might just hear me!
Ok now the silence, what sound the silence makes when one is so awake! We had no phone, no one near enough to run to. No gun for protection, no dog to hide behind, just me alone in this dark thick night. The silence growing, bigger and bigger, overtaking my senses. Breathe I tell myself, silent as the night. Breathe and listen, quick and quiet. Nothing now, but still I am scared. It was real, right? I question myself.
The minutes tick by, first five and then ten. Nothing again but the silence. I wait afraid to move lest I should make any sound. Twenty minutes and my body is aching, I have to stretch, to move to breathe. I dare try it now, first straining a toe. It seems odd to me, as if I am not quite in control. Little by little I work up my might. Still afraid in this night, of the movement and sound, that I might disturb this thing that I heard. This what? I think to myself. I heard no other sound, nothing but me.
Now I am brave, as time has ticked by. How long I wonder, an hour perhaps? I feel confident now to stand, my knees no longer jello, I feel strong and secure or so I tell myself. I stand and walk, from my chair to the window, still black as tar I have no view. Nothing is wrong, it all seems normal, and moving still more, I see nothing there. In the dark, I see the dark, no reflection of me.
OK I'm convinced that all is now well, and rest as I'm weary. I begin to drift to that world unknown, feeling warm and content in my run down shack. As I drift off, no longer in fear, I feel before I see. The cold seeping so deep in my soul. Now with no sound, the cold takes my breath. This thing is far deeper than sound, its deeper than life. I feel as this world drifts away, that empty cold is filling my lungs. I can't breathe as the cold takes my voice. I tried to scream but it was naught to be. No sound, no life, only me, drifting in the dark. I open my eyes now and I see, that my home is completely empty. No longer a quilt, or a fire or dish. I am alone in my home. Years seem to have passed in the blink of an eye. The dust of time, of cobwebs and filth. Its cold here. I walk without tracks, I make not a sound. I cannot scream. I cannot draw in the dust. I cannot get warm. I am not here. I am not real. I am not to be, as I'm dead now you see.
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| Alias | Date | Reply |
| whyNOT askwhy? |
10/22/2005 7:54:00 PM |
:) I'm Dead!! LOL |
| §ilent Echo |
10/22/2005 8:32:00 PM |
This had my attention the entire time I was reading it! I really love the way you wrote this out! I was there right along with the story (-: There were moments even I, had trouble catching my breath while reading this, Lol.. |
| ~grace~ |
10/22/2005 9:22:00 PM |
This was very good writing. Awesome. Take care, |
| whyNOT askwhy? |
10/23/2005 3:31:00 PM |
Hey you two, thanks for reading this... and thanks for the comments :) |
| DizzyJay |
10/26/2005 11:41:00 AM |
I loved this! :D |
| whyNOT askwhy? |
10/26/2005 6:36:00 PM |
Thanks Dizzy Jay :) Glad you liked it :) |
| whyNOT askwhy? |
10/29/2005 9:18:00 PM |
Happy Halloween :) just a tad early... |
| Hagatha |
10/30/2005 3:17:00 AM |
Awesome story Jungbel. Sad though if this is how it could be... Excellent writing. |
| whyNOT askwhy? |
10/30/2005 7:06:00 AM |
Thank you Penny :) I couldn't really imagine that each of us would end up this way, but what if?? LOL Wow, wouldn't that be a shocker!! |
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